Temporary.

3:32 am
It never does anyone good to ponder this late at night. But yet, here I am. Surprise, surprise?

Don't really know why too, but I felt like I needed to empty a part of me out before I could sleep tonight. The idea of Temporary.

Nothing in this world stays constant, nothing in this world will remain permanent with no change: it's something that I have accepted. Some people and things more than others, will stick around a little longer - and when they stick around long enough we give them a name and allow them to stay.

Family, Bffs, Lovers, Scars, Memories.
They all have a name, they all get to stay.

All of us has that someone whose temporary to them, just like we are all someone else's temporary.
It's a never ending search for that feeling that gives you "Forever" even when you know nothing is forever. We search for it in the things we seek to do, in the friends we hope make, in the people we try to love, in the strangers we meet each day.

But you see, what we all seek isn't something you can hold in your hand tightly and never let go. What we seek needs to be cultivated, earned, gained and then Lost only for it all to be repeated again. Truth be told, a part of me thinks we live for the temporary: for whatever fleeting thing it is we desire with all our hearts and mind and souls. It keeps us going, that never attainable goal.

Yet it's tiring to be temporary.
To be someone else's temporary is to leave a scar on them when you no longer can stay, or for them to leave a scar on you when they decide it is time to go. Temporary is draining really: emotionally, physically, spiritually. The hardest part is when you have to force someone to recognise that you might only be a temporary in the thing that they seek from you.

I've been a temporary for so long.
Then again, we've all been.

And we, will always be that way.
Life with death, Reunions and Partings. Paths that come together only to be separated. I'm a sucker for Fate - believe that it exists with all my heart, and so everything can be changed if your fate wishes it to. But the one thing I know fate can't decide is that: Us Humans, we were made to be temporary.

And honestly, how sad is that?

02:41am.

Lava Lava You.

Sunday again.
All my weekends are zooming past so quickly and week 3 of school starts tomorrow. School's been treating me pretty well, and I'm just excited that I'm taking Journalism this sem :)) It's been... everything I expected and also kinda more. It's dry for some people, but I'm truly liking this mod. The feeling's a little like the excitement I got back when I was studying GP and I learnt new stuff (I am not a nerd, do not judge me haha) I'm just trying to say that this mod is my motivational source for this sem and I'm glad it's that way :))

Spent yesterday with the bacons out celebrating Dawn's belated day and as always, time with them is always good. Finally after 5 months, Christine, Dawn and I are reunited together. It's been hard finding time to meet as we used to and I honestly see the guys a lot more than I do them.. but every time we meet it's like we never separated. They are still the girls I turn to for everything and the two people who know me better than I'll admit heh.

Went drinking last night before we, in all our impromptuness, decided we should watch a movie at 1 in the morning... and so we did HAHA Glad we did though, cause I've been meaning to catch this and IT'S A DISNEY MOVIE AND DISNEY MOVIES ARE NEVER BAD!!! So all the more we should watch it hehe I've come to an alarming conclusion that they all think the character Joy from Inside Out is exactly like me LOL. Worst still it was KJ who pointed it out haha. So apparently to my friends, I'm a crazy, overly-positive and hyped up weirdo HAHAHAHA thanks for the love friends

Glad we got to have an almost-all-member present gathering before we all separate for another week of battles with school, and camp duties and life in general mehh at least I'm feeling charged up for the week! (actually not really, I'm just trying my best to psycho myself) and with that I shall leave you with one of the most plainly retarded thing, that is also oddly cute, we saw last night in the movies: LAVAAA

Could only find the 40 sec version of this hilarious video, but I promise I'll post it when I can find the full version!