19.

Most probably the most important thing I've learnt in this 19th year
Or maybe the most important thing I've learnt all my life so far.

The past year has most probably seen the most and the worst of my "failures" be it in expectations, results and even some of my relationships. Or as some people would say it's been a valuable lesson. I used to tell people to enjoy their 19th year, "it's your last teen year, make it last for what it's worth". It was not as I had expected, most of the year came as a shock I think but then again things often don't go the way you expect them too.

Turing 20 in awhile and I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about it.
Not quite yet ready to leave my teens behind I think. 20's always represent growing up, the transition of no longer having the excuse of being a child yet still trying to discover who you are as a person, an adult. It's suppose to be the best years of your life, yet also the years to path what the rest of your life is suppose to be.

I should be excited yes? HAHAHA
Guess I'm both excited and also not ready. Then again what is the definition of being "ready"? I guess you just go and try to make the best out of it!

19 was the hardest period of time in my life to date. There were moments of laughter and joy and also a period of time of sadness, so much that it almost felt like depression. More of the latter perhaps. Yet years down from now, what has happened in the past 1 year might be so insignificant I'll look back and laugh. (maybe? hopefully? Yeah I most probably might)

Regardless of which, the things I've learnt and some of the people I've met are most probably really precious gifts. Always look on the Bright side of Life right? (and now I can't get the song out of my head HAHAHA) So I am thankful for 19 teaching me what it did. And I'm thankful for the laughter, the tears, the good, the boring, the sad, the love I've received and the memories I have with some of the most important people in my life today, in some of my most memorable teen years; most probably 15-19? HAHA

Time to start a new phrase of life.
So for the unknown and the inexperienced; the best advice my teen self can most probably give my 20-something self to remember:

August.

5 days late, but Hello August.

A month of many changes, where everyone is headed in different directions and I guess the first steps out into adulthood (Uni life and all) for the girls.

Aug might be my fav month of the year, where it always seems a little happier and funner (maybe cause it's my birthday month hehehe) Not to mention this month always passes way too quickly- like how it's already the 5th! Can't believe school is starting for me soon and orientation is coming up too?? My 9 months of (Hell &) Freedom is almost over. I took a huge step away from the conventional, so here's hoping I made the right choice.

Turning 20 in 2 days and.... I'm not quite sure how I feel about it. Not quite yet ready to leave the "teens" behind and step into my twenties (just saying it alone sounds so old hahaha) but no one can quite stop time as it is and ready or not it's going to happen. I might as well try my best to make my life worth in the 20's

Went to the NDP preview with the family over the weekend! So glad my aunt got the tickets this year and she kindly passed everything to me so I could bring whoever I wanted :D Been wanting to watch ndp with the family ever since... I can't really even remember when actually HAHAHA but since I got the chance then of course I went with mum & dad, both the sissys and their mum as well. I took so many photos my phone's memory is running out ( I shall post them another day :))
It was nice to sing all them patriotic songs at the tops of my lungs and not get judged, even nicer to be retarded with the sissys and have the family with me.

Speaking of family, Kat is finally back!!
After 11 months of not seeing her in person and only on skype the girl is finally back for the next 3 wees before she goes back to Swiss to finish up her degree. Can't believe it's almost been a year already. So much has happened within this period of time and seeing her again (now with a boyfriend) made me realise how fast it's all been and how much we've each grown in the time away from each other.

Guess we're all no longer kids.
The thought's a little scary, but it's good to have them all with me along the way <3

August 2014: 8 months into the year
This is the month of change: new beginnings, different paths. Of renewed Hellos and of Goodbyes. Things to look forward to and things to reflect back on last year around this period of time. Hello August, please be kind to all of us.