19.

Most probably the most important thing I've learnt in this 19th year
Or maybe the most important thing I've learnt all my life so far.

The past year has most probably seen the most and the worst of my "failures" be it in expectations, results and even some of my relationships. Or as some people would say it's been a valuable lesson. I used to tell people to enjoy their 19th year, "it's your last teen year, make it last for what it's worth". It was not as I had expected, most of the year came as a shock I think but then again things often don't go the way you expect them too.

Turing 20 in awhile and I'm still trying to figure out how I feel about it.
Not quite yet ready to leave my teens behind I think. 20's always represent growing up, the transition of no longer having the excuse of being a child yet still trying to discover who you are as a person, an adult. It's suppose to be the best years of your life, yet also the years to path what the rest of your life is suppose to be.

I should be excited yes? HAHAHA
Guess I'm both excited and also not ready. Then again what is the definition of being "ready"? I guess you just go and try to make the best out of it!

19 was the hardest period of time in my life to date. There were moments of laughter and joy and also a period of time of sadness, so much that it almost felt like depression. More of the latter perhaps. Yet years down from now, what has happened in the past 1 year might be so insignificant I'll look back and laugh. (maybe? hopefully? Yeah I most probably might)

Regardless of which, the things I've learnt and some of the people I've met are most probably really precious gifts. Always look on the Bright side of Life right? (and now I can't get the song out of my head HAHAHA) So I am thankful for 19 teaching me what it did. And I'm thankful for the laughter, the tears, the good, the boring, the sad, the love I've received and the memories I have with some of the most important people in my life today, in some of my most memorable teen years; most probably 15-19? HAHA

Time to start a new phrase of life.
So for the unknown and the inexperienced; the best advice my teen self can most probably give my 20-something self to remember: