time's running out and i've finally just settled one of the most important things. it's almost worth me only sleeping one hour last night to rush it out. getting chased out of school by the security guard because it's time for school to close has been my habit the past 2 nights. been so tired lately that i haven't been doing much of my school work at all and that isn't a good thing.
i've only hit 30.6% , a far cry from the 80% that is expected of me. Oh My God. please let a miracle happen and let this go smoothly. i've put in too much effort for this to just go down the drain... i even dream about this at night and so far it ain't going well.
nevermind that this is slowly turning into my worst fear, but the fact that there's additional crap that's being thrown my way is making things slowly unbearable for me. i just really want to do this well, that isn't too much to ask for right?
the feeling of being unappreciated and being the ultimate dumping ground for so many things have been ticking off the people around me lately. i can't say i don't feel the same way sometimes. the only thing that's keeping us all going is the fact that we still have the passion for what we're doing. so we put up with it, no matter how ridiculous and difficult the situations get.
there's a limit though, and i feel like mine's coming to it's max soon. so i tell myself every morning when i wake up these past two weeks: that's one day less that you have now. push harder today, bear with everything and just do your best.
all i can say is that whoever is looking out for me up there, thank you for the friends you give me. the people who support me all the way when i'm barely surviving each day and the people who are willing to come and give me their support even though they have better and more important things to do. they make me even more determined to make this a success.
5 more days. i can do this.
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