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Coldplay - A sky full of stars

One of the most played songs on my playlist recently

3 weeks of neglecting this space and it's about time I got back to it! In a sense it might be a good thing? I've been occupied with the important people in my life, and less by the little troubles I have from time to time. Less of a reason for me to write, more of a reason for me to be happy.

Officially my second week off work and I'm on lepak mode (as best as I can at least) Baking, cooking, eating, reading, catching up w old friends and spending more time w Dad. It's been an eventful 3 weeks though, with the first trip among the cousins to HK, gatherings w the tkg girls (after so long), meeting Yijia after more than a year <3 and college day on Sat.

Been spending more me time too, making a bigger effort to do the things that make me happy :) Getting to know more people better too, people I didn't think I would know on such a level with what has happened. And in a sense just letting life happen.

I've made my decision on NUS.

After a lot of thought (I would say) I've rejected that opportunity. I understand that some people who genuinely care are concerned about my choice and then there are also some people who are just concerned so that I can become another of their gossiping topics as they get together (funny how they think I do not realize this though hmmm). But the latter is pretty secondary to how I feel after making this decision. At this point in time of my life, this is what I feel is best for me. It's not that I'm not afraid of the consequences of this decision, it's just that I think even so I will be gladly willing to take it as it comes to me. I'm just thankful for the support my family and friends give me in this decision. Hopefully this is the right decision for myself. Or rather, I'm going to try to make it the right decision for myself.

Read an extract from a book recently, and I was kinda shocked by how accurately it defined things that I sometimes worry over:

 " The world has no answer.

Don't look for an answer. With every decision, the right and wrong answer coexist.

Wise people make a decision and work towards making it the right choice

Foolish people make a decision and regret making a wrong choice.

The world has no right answer, but there is a process to making a decision a right answer."

Better words of advice couldn't have come to me at this point in time with this decision. Kinda glad I stumbled upon it. Guess it's really right when people say: we are now exactly where we are meant to be at this point in time of our lives. Some way or another things always work it's way out, doesn't it?Whatever it is, whether or not the choice was ours: accepting the situation and trying to make the best out of it, those words really do make sense.

Took me awhile to realize all that, but I'm pretty glad right now I see clearly enough to know irregardless of what has happened, I can only get tougher and stronger as a person. Maybe that's life; getting better with each disappointment, failure, heartache. At the end we all have to die, it's about looking back and saying "I've survived and it's been a good journey".

Yeah, I would like to live my life as best as I can from now, to look back happy with what I've done.