Decisions.

My spot has been neglected.
Been so caught up the past 2 weeks I haven't exactly had the time to update this place, real sorry about that. Heh

Last 2 weeks has been nothing short of happenings: between meeting old friends, surprise visits at work, weekend trip w the family to Ipoh, my annoying acid reflux crap (annoying is an understatement), and me not being able to watch How To Train Your Dragon 2 (AGAIN T.T) or Transformers for that matter, just cause all the tickets were sold out. And finally, perhaps the most important and significant news EVER: NUS FASS.

Yeah, I wrote right. I got an acceptance letter from them. Something I didn't ever expect honestly, but I guess there are miracles, that or they saw some good in me? Either way, I can't quite believe it yet maybe. The one place I thought I would go without hesitation gave me an admission spot.

And now, the more serious problem:
I don't know if I should accept it.

At this point some people might want to slap me and ask wth would I not accept it. I guess in this period of time where I thought to seek other options I found something that isn't the norm. A uni that I'm interested in: a course that seems like me. It's the same as I would take if I went w FASS but just in a different environment and with different opportunities for me in the future.

Home is great.
NUS is great.
FASS is great.
Just that after 3 years of JC, I really wonder if I really want to put myself through another 3-4 years of the same system. After learning more about the school, Nus is honestly (in my eyes now) a more up scaled version of a JC; a place where I spent the first 1 year lost and absolutely clueless to why I was there, what I was doing with my life.

I don't wish to go into nus only to find myself lost again midway, wondering why on earth I choose this place when it's just a bigger junior college. In all honesty, I just don't really want to handle such an environment again.
I'm scared I guess, of what would happen if I accepted this, and what would happen if I don't.

Everyone says to go with what my heart tells me, regardless of what it is I choose they will support my decision. How thankful should I be honestly, to have all these family and friends who aren't concerned with where I study (the prestige of the school I choose or what not) just as long as I'm doing what I want, the way I want it. Though, Chris did tell me I should join her and be her fass friend like a GAZILLION times, but she still said she'll support me nonetheless.

"Go with your heart 

and it won't lead you astray."

Again I find myself stuck in between options that both have their advantages and disadvantages. And again it's about a matter that concerns possibly the rest of my life at this moment in time. In a sense I know where my heart lies, I'm perhaps afraid of that first step out to confirming it.

Whatever it is, I just hope to find the courage to make the decision I feel is best for me, and me only. Got till the end of this week to decide, I might as well try my hardest to think about this as best as I can.