05:06am.

And I do wonder, if being afraid means that something is important to you.

Being honest about how you feel, is a lot harder than I remembered (or is that just me?) I choose to believe that's something that most normal humans struggle with.

I feel a little weird tonight.

Not exactly sure what this slightly empty feeling in my chest is,

I'm not exactly sure why it is there to begin with. 

What is this I'm feeling....

Not exactly sure why it was hard to say Goodbye

when I knew it was going to happen eventually.

I'm not exactly sure why I asked that question, when the normal me would just have kept quiet and let it slide. Not exactly sure what it is that makes it harder to leave each time. Not exactly sure why it hovers around my mind even when I'm busy, nor why I concern myself with it when it isn't my place to.

It's a little Hazy, all of it.

Knowing what is right and being able to do it without hesitation can sometimes be such a difficult thing. Everything that happened now seems like an illusion. The only real thing I am sure of perhaps, is that I am strong. Just like what was said to me, I'll be alright - everything has always only been a matter of time. Right? 

So whatever this is I'm feeling.

Or whatever all these different feelings I'm having are: I'll pack them up, lock them away and keep them safe where no one will know - cause that is what's expected of me. 

Wish I could sleep though, feeling so tired but my mind won't shut off.... All my rolling around in bed is only making it worse. It's been such a long night, so much so that I feel like I'm dreaming. And the thing about dreaming is that eventually, we'll have to wake up.