can't we go back?

the times where you stare at your phone and wonder why that familiar number doesn't appear, the times where you remember the laughs that you onced shared. the times when you find a letter in a corner of your room, read it again and feel all your emotions rushing back to you. the times where you wonder and wonder: can't we go back?

1 month and 22 days. time sure passes by quickly, and the once empty feeling i felt at the beginning is slowly becoming permanent. i once promised myself that till the end i would keep and protect this friendship at all costs, but things are getting blurry.

i thought time would help settle things. that when the time was right, we would go back to the way we were, but the more time passes the harder it is for me to believe that i haven't been forgotten. life goes on for everyone, no one questions why we're not talking, no one asks how i feel about this. but if they did, i would tell them: something's not right, a huge part is missing.

i now realise that the easiest things, are sometimes also the hardest thing. saying hello used to be so easy. yet right now, i don't even know if i should approach you or how you'll react to me. it isn't suppose to be that hard.

i don't know what's going to happen from here on, but i really need you to know this: no matter what your thoughts are towards us, or if you've figured out how you wanna go from here, at least know that i really miss you and how we used to be.