Happiness.

"Did you ever care?"

Yeah I did. 

"Well then, why did you stop caring?"

I didn't stop caring, I just stopped letting it affect my entire being.

"Why not try again? Why give it up so easily? Does it/that person mean so little to you?"

Giving up isn't easy. Giving up is admitting that you tried and nothing is working, maybe you didn't try your hardest, yeah. But no one can keep trying if you keep hitting the same wall. Having tried then having to admit it was a failure, over and over again. 

Do you know how hard that is?

Giving up isn't always just for people who see no value in something/someone anymore. 

To some, it's turning your back on something that you've put effort into. 

And if that something meant something to you, how can that ever be easy?

I cared. 

I think I cared so much that I got tired of feeling like I was the only one who cared, like I was the only one still trying. It was the same feeling as back then when I tried making someone stay..... I cared so much that I almost forgot what it's like to be happy and happiness is something I don't want to compromise on anymore.

That's why I stopped caring so much: it just wasn't that worth it. 

Not anymore.

Perhaps this is a reminder,

To everyone, no matter who you are, under what circumstances or situation: Don't let people and things get in the way of you being happy. Please always try to choose your own Happiness. 

Don't take life too seriously: it's far too painful and tiring that way

Don't take people too seriously: not all are meant to stay

Don't take words too seriously: they hold no meaning till actions fill their place

Don't take emotions too seriously: for they can change, at any moment

And most importantly, 

Don't take yourself too seriously: things get bad, only to get better.
Everyday, everything, is all part of personal growth. Whether it's doing a little better in your exam, accomplishing a goal, running a little farther on a jog, having more conversations with the people that matter.... Just, Anything really. At the end, be content enough to look back and say "I'm glad I got this far, satisfied and thankful with everything I've done and the people I have with me."

People who read what I write must be thinking that I'm some super unhappy kid all the time or something hahaha. But just because I talk often about "putting my happiness first", doesn't mean I'm not happy with life. I am. I've just been needing a reminder a lot more often lately. I know this because I read it somewhere before: Happiness is not a destination. It is a mood, it is not permanent. It comes and goes. When you think about it, you realise how true this is. And since it is so, then actually we are all Happy people: just at different times.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I'm still learning about Happiness. 

(maybe in some way or another, everyone is learning too) 

I'm learning to place my family relations, friendships, that past relationship, my goals, worries, fears and whatever else not behind my own happiness. Dawn told me the other day that right now nothing in this world needs to matter more than my own Happiness. Perhaps she's right. 

I like it best when I'm happy too.

Because when you're happy, everything seems better. 

And at that moment, you know that nothing is greater than the feeling you have inside of you.