To New Beginnings.

I look retarded haha but TRYING to embrace Year 2 be like this

Tomorrow marks the first day of Uni year 2.
It's been a year since I've started on this journey. A year away from the conventional path that almost all my family and close friends have chosen; and what a year it's been.

Year 1 really went past like a flash. Everything and everyone seeming so oddly unfamiliar in a familiar way. (Sounds weird, I know hahha) Studying was familiar yet different: I knew how to study, it was the same as before. But the way it was taught, the way I was learning was all different and to be honest I embraced it. It's been fun. Real tiring and hectic with the tight deadlines, but learning's been fun. :)

The people were also in some ways similar and in some ways also distant. Different from the bacon familia for sure, and perhaps I've yet to find my place with them. But there have been a few kind souls that have made this one year easier, fun, memorable even. Lessons in friendship, in self-happiness were taught to me, and I guess I could say I've learnt a fair bit from them. Letting go of people have become easier - as I understand more each day that I can't please everyone, and what they do should have no hold over my own happiness. At the end the friendships that really matter will reveal themselves and people are seemingly always temporary: something I'm still learning.

A friend at work told me today: "You're sometimes overly optimistic. You're the kind of person who believes in the good of everyone and trusts them fully until the moment they betray you and that trust. That can be a disadvantage at times."

The funny thing is this girl is my exact opposite, she always doubts people till proven that they can be trusted. And here we both are: slowly finding ourselves becoming closer and better friends. She's one of the kind souls I've gotten to meet in school the last one year and as opposite as we are, I'm glad we got close cause she kinda balances me out. :) But yeah, she may be right about me and the way I view people: trust till they betray me. Yet I wouldn't do it any other way too. Always treat others with sincerity, the way you want to be treated, even if they don't treat you the same. At least that way I will always know that I haven't let my conscience down.

And suddenly I'm starting to feel nervous for year 2.
Like a little kid on the first day of school again haha. I wonder what this year will bring, how things will change. Tomorrow when I go back, what will they be like -  things change so often it's hard to keep track of who's what and what's exactly going on to be honest hahaha. A little apprehensive of the things that might happen, but I'm looking forward to going back to studying again (might be book obsessed, but I happen to like what I study so it's all good :))

People have asked me the same few questions, but my answers are still the same: I don't regret making that decision and giving up on that chance to go to a local Uni. I don't regret seeing all my best friends enjoy hall life and local uni life more than I did. I don't regret "shrinking" my "future opportunities" be it in work, in chances or in relations with people. I don't regret cause I listened to my heart to make this decision back then. So no matter how hard it can get, no matter what comes my way, I will keep going as I've always done.

And so here's hoping Year 2, with all it's challenges and people it brings, will be kind. (PLEASEEE)
I think I'm better prepared for them this time. I think. Haha