stop.

tonight i've realised:
nothing i will ever do is enough, nothing i will ever do will show her.

not because i haven't tried, but because she hasn't opened up to hear me. and everything i say, to her, is nothing but excuses and more excuses. she knows in her heart that i am right, but she just can't accept it. that's why she keeps trying to fight it. even though she says she's alright, she's accepted it, she believes and trusts in me to do the right thing. but very honestly, it's also a lie. cause it's in her eyes and in her actions, she has never once meant her words.

maybe i should stop trying. i'm tired of trying and i'm sick and tired of getting misunderstood. i never meant what she says i mean. but i can never convince her that i don't mean things that way. maybe i should listen to others and learn to be a little more selfish, a little more greedy. maybe i should stop caring, cause suddenly, it seems so much more easier that way.



i'm tired of fighting. i really am.