smile.

when you're too upset, people around will tell you: don't be unhappy, because it'll be okay. when you try to be happy, someone asks you: why are you so happy? in this situation?

so then, what do i show? and what do i hide?

it's hard to hear other people tell you how you should be feeling even though i know that they say so only out of concern. so then after thinking alot, this is what i have to say : if you need to, mope around and be sad. cry about it, think about it. roll in bed and not do anything if you must. let yourself feel the upset and the frustration, let yourself BE SAD. because you need it, because it is important...

even when you're told you shouldn't be sad and you should stay positive, don't listen if you don't want to. because it's your life, and if YOU NEED THE SADNESS before you can move on, then go ahead, be sad. but still, never forget the reminders that those who care give you : stay positive.

when the time is right, allow yourself to smile and laugh a little. don't think that it's a sin to smile and laugh even when you're in the face of an unhappy situation. because as unlikely as this sounds, when you smile and laugh, everything seems so much more manageable, so much more easier and you start to believe that you can do it and it'll be okay.

SMILE.
because sooner or later, you'll realise that you can't keep going on the way you are. smile because it actually gives you the courage to continue and walk out of any dark situation you might be in. smile because you mean it and because it's worth it.

and when you finally feel that you'll go on with your life, don't forget this:
keep the pain, the sadness, the anger and the frustration. keep them as a memory to remind yourself of how to never make the same mistake again, let them always be a loud indication of the time you once faltered and failed. but don't ever let them put you down and stop you from trying to achieve greater and better things.

so i guess this is all that i want to say, to myself.