forgotten?

sometimes we all like to look for the forgotten things in our lives. the feelings we once felt, or the memories we onced had. maybe the people who are no longer in our lives but whose actions changed us in ways we never thought possible.

i think the thing is that we never actually do forget.

somewhere in your heart or mind there still lives that memory and feeling, that one moment that was just special enough for you to mark in your heart and keep it there for years to come. just that for some reason, you locked it away in a corner of your life.

cause we're all too busy? or maybe you just left it there for too long, and it got awkward. you stop trying for awhile and it was hard at first, but then it slowly became something that you find yourself adjusting to. you know you don't mean for yourself to forget, but there are just other piorities.

once in awhile we remember the things we thought we've forgotten. perhaps it's by chance that we've found them again. or maybe subconciously, we were looking for these little things just that we are too afraid of finding them again? because if you look back only to remember how happy you were then with someone, it only serves as a reminder of what you no longer are right now.

at times we forget the important people. and by the time you realise how things are no longer the same, it's already too late. the moment has passed and something is already different. you can't go back and it just doesn't feel like what things used to be.

i realise now that relashionships between people are fragile and precious. reason being that it can all change in a second. even the strongest and most trustable friendships and relashionships between old friends or lovers can be shaken and broken.

looking out at the sky tonight, i remember what i've forgotten.

but then again, maybe i never once did forget.