another night, another memory.

hello out there.

it's been a week since i've written in this space and feeling rather bad at that, so i've decided to write tonight even though the weather outside is practically telling me to go hide under my blanket and sleep.

truth be told, even if i wasn't writing tonight i would be doing math, which i fully intend to go back to after this. (: just came back from dinner with the mj seniors and oh man, haven't seen them since colosseum night but it's crazy how easy we all fit together. even my senior's seniors and i get along, i wonder if this really means i'm getting old. haha.

hearing them talk about Uni life which have recently started for most is rather funny. there you have the 9 of us, age 18-20 talking about life, school, work, poly. struggling with different everyday things, sharing our recent funny moments, talking about the past and planning our future together. i can't help but wish time would just stop for us and stay that way. i've always felt that no matter what, the company that you have is the most important. everything else is secondary because it really is the people who make it special and tonight is one good example.

i think of these girls and my j2 girls whenever i find myself suffocating where i am. the thing is there is comfort in knowing that i can return to them at the end of the day with no care in the world of what i become because they will always accept me for who i am. no judgement, no fakery, no lies. no wonder i miss them so much.

they will be there, they always will and that is comfort enough. i shall find ways to navigate this precarious terrain i'm walking on, conquer these obstacles and be alright. this war of minds is tiring, but i will not succumb to what others feel and think of me. i am who i am and i will stay true to that. my real friends will take me for who i am and accept all of it. at the end of it all, those are the people who truly matter.

enough of all that heart wrenching stuff though, its time to summarize my past week(s) in photos (:

half the crazed bunch.
had the best night today in the longest period of time.

our teachers' day gift to Ms Liyana.
hand drawn by Asyilah, she's super talented!

home-made muffins from dawn to show her love to us!! (:

a really nice person who bought me macroons just to bring more cheer into my life.

jalan raya-ing at ama's w my tkgirls <3

NIGHT festival! on sat.

so that's been my past 2 weeks or so really, plus alot of late night studying (to which there are no pictures to show for....)

speaking of which, all this late night mugging sessions are really messing up my complexion and even my dad's starting to take note. he actually looked at me over dinner one night and commented: "wah, why your 黑眼圈(dark eye cirlces) so bad?! what have you been doing? " to answer this question, basically i study till about 1 plus 2am every night and wake up at about 5 plus in the morning (on weekends) to continue again. on weekdays i let myself sleep more cause there's school (: and that makes me really happy (cheap thrills of about an hour more sleep)

that's about my cycle really. school, home, study, sleep then school again. 2 weeks and 4 days to promos. gotta do this right this time, whatever else can wait, shall wait and will wait. and now that i'm done , it's back to vectors 2 for me. (someone please tell me how exactly did i think this topic was easy last year ?!)