been doing chem in my reindeer PJ's (do not judge me) their really rather cute but more importantly they are comfortable. i'm big on comfort during stressful periods. ah well, 1 day to promos, ain't no running away from this anymore. i most probably won't be around for awhile so i kinda need to unwind all these from my mind before going back to lit.
honestly, promos haven't even began and i see everyone looking forward to the plans that they've made for after promos. why is it that i'm not looking forward to it? or rather, i honestly haven't made any plans. though some stuff have popped up on the agenda. Mr lee's getting married on the 10th nov, and from the looks of it i'll most probably be going. Marr and Fi's 19th celebration on the 10th oct is something i'm looking forward too as well.
though promos are honestly better off coming late, the after promo plans do sound enticing. sigh, hang in there and get through this. i need to make it up to j2. i will make it.. i just have to.
i've probably mentioned this more than a gazillion times, but i do love my friends. the people who put everything aside to encourage me, or text me in the midst of prelims just to make sure i'm still sane and going. they've never given up on me, not even once. i've said that i don't know what i've done to deserve people like that. i still don't, but these people keep me going. because of them, even when i'm down and tired, frustrated and upset, i still manage a smile. though i've never given up hope, their presence has been more than encouraging to me. just like my own family, they've given me strength and i honestly can't ask for anything more than that.
i'm happy with what i have. the friends who care, teachers who help me and my family who has always believed in me regardless of the fact that i've been a huge disappointment to them in the past 2 years. i'm a blessed girl, i really am. so to whoever whose watching out for me, thank you for all that you've given me in life and thank you for letting me see that there's nothing more magical than treasuring the people around you and having your loved ones with you.
this is finally it.
the outcome of the rest of my life is about to happen. so please, if it's not too hard for me to ask for, please let me make it through. let me see that my 2 years haven't been in vain and give me the courage to prove to myself that it's all worth it. don't let me be a disappointment again. please.
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