better than it was.

Haven't taken the time to update my space these past few days cause it's been pretty hectic lately, but it's all died down now and here i am.

i figured we all need a little of this in our everyday lives.

So, school starts on Monday....
i've been listening to some complain about how life ahead in J2 is gonna be tough for us and i've also been hearing my other friends tell me how seriously happy they are that they've finally graduated from MJ. it's a pretty mixed response on my part.

I suppose as much as i'm afraid of the year ahead, i'm rather relieved to finally get it started. Must as well start school and get a taste of what it's like, rather than sit around and live in denial till A's actually hits me in the face right? one would think that with me always hanging around my J2 friends last year, i would be mentally prepared for what lies ahead. i'm not sure if i agree though. after all, preparing yourself for something and going through it is two rather completely different things. we shall have to see what life ahead is like come Monday then.

As weird as this sounds but when i got a text from school yesterday telling me about my new timetable and reporting time, i actually stoned for a bit to process the situation. the text started: DEAR JC2, .... in my head i realised: "J2? oh yeah, i'm in J2. wow, i'm finally a J2??" i realise that this sounds very ridiculous to other people, but it's really rather surreal to me. i wonder if it's cause throughout the past 2 years in MJ, all i've ever been referred to is: DEAR JC1.
now that i'm finally moving forward, it feels like i'm leaving a part of me behind. it's definitely good news cause no one wants to get stuck in a place with no progress, but i guess i just find the mental processing a little hard on my part.

Was this how my friends felt? J1 to J2 is a rather big change in many aspects maybe more for me after 2 years of doing (almost) the same thing and seeing all my close friends/seniors graduate, move on to Uni and up to J2 without me. it's a weird feeling to finally have a chance to see what it's like to move on and leave things behind instead of always being the one left behind. but it's a good weird i guess, it's finally time to see what lies ahead in life for me. (sorta, needa survive A's first)

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On another note, i finally met up with Edward on thurs. to say that i'm happy to see him is a HUGE understatement :) he's totally becoming a 宅男 though because all he does is sleep, eat, watch his huge collection of shows and the cycle just repeats. of course he denies all my accusations, but he was in a good mood and let me have my way in the end.
it was a good afternoon with Ed. i kinda miss all these little things that count with the people who truly matter and i was reminded that he's a person who i can say all my biggest worries to and we can literally talk all day. i'm rather grateful for this bro of mine :)

The long overdue date w the CGreps aka my burden family was finally arranged for as well. this is another bunch of people i'm very grateful to have met in 2012 because the 4 of them has each made doing j1 over much more bearable. the unspoken, retarded, truly unbelievable things that we've done and been through through together the past 1 year never fails to make me laugh but what amazes me most is that i never expected to find another family of friends who are all equally, if not more, weird than me but are willing to accept each other for the nonsense we subject each other to. :D

it's a super blur photo of the polaroid, but this is the burden family. <3

All that plus a few other encounters has made my last week of freedom complete. i'm rather happy with what i've accomplish this short break (in terms of my social life at least) though there are a few people whom i never got the chance to meet, but i'll think of them often and that's good enough for now.

2013 is turning out to be.... nicer (can't think of a better word) than i expected, at least the first few days are better than what i thought. hopefully the year ahead will be a good one in many aspects. someone mentioned to me yesterday that my horoscope outlook for the year seems to be a rather good one, in certain areas especially, (ahem) hahahaha! i wonder if i should take her words seriously. O.o if so, 2013 looks like a pretty good year for me. then again, the thing about horoscopes is whether you actually believe in it or not. i suppose i shall just have see how accurate it turns out to be :)