Nostalgic.

haven't touched my space for more than a week so i'm starting to feel slightly guilty for neglecting this area. since it's Tues and Wed are relatively short, i'll take my chances and a break from work to write a little (:

Bruno Mars - When I Was Your Man

one of current favourite songs these days even though i suppose i can't really identify much with the lyrics but it's been a long time since i've found a song whereby i fell instantly in love with the melody. laying in bed at night with this song on replay, sometimes it's like i can hear his inner most feelings through every word he sings (okay, slight exaggeration) but that's exactly how it is to me. i guess that's why i sometimes love his songs, it always seems so genuine and never fake, just the way loving someone should be.

enough of that though, it's already week 4 of school and i was telling Faith yesterday after math about how time is suddenly going past so quickly. week 1 felt like forever, week 2 was slightly bearable, week 3 went past faster than expected and before we know it, it's now week 4. Nette and i did some quick calculations, we have about 1 month and a little more to MBTs.... the level of preparedness right now is about equivalent ground-zero and with so much to do on a day-to-day basis, it's really hard to even bring ourselves to start on revision.

i've had 2 chem class test this week so far, and it's only Tuesday. not to mention the chem lecture test this Thurs... it's all a little crazy and honestly, a little hard to grasp but we're all trying. in whatever ways we can, we are all just trying. 

at the very least, trying must amount to something right? i hope it does. J2 is still a slightly foreign concept to me but i'm surrounded by people who make it much more bearable and for that i'm very grateful. somehow the thought of the J1s coming in this Fri isn't very appealing because i realise my comfortable silence and space is going to be intruded on soon. was this how my friends felt about us last year? must be it huh. but whether or not we like it the J1s are coming and things are gonna get busier around school. it's 10 more months, just 10 more months.

all that aside, i got round to finishing up my vision board over the weekend and i've handed it in to my CTs today. though it's not really well done, but i'm pretty happy w the outcome of it (:

vision board 2013

i also managed to meet Ed last Fri for dinner and i ended up dragging him around to do some shopping with me while we talked. i think i'm gonna miss him A LOT when he enlists in 2 weeks, something that is pretty much inevitable. but i'm proud to say that he's cut down the pigging by quite a lot and actually sees the daylight now instead of cooping up at home like some no-life kid. he's been getting round to a little exercising and erm, girl-spying? (ahem) i shall not expose him too much.

i spent yesterday afternoon w the CGreps going around to check out the HDB areas that our various classes are in charge of for "Project Festive" this coming Sat. it's essentially a project where all of MJ including our teachers are going door-to-door of the blocks near our area to wish the residents happy CNY, give them oranges and collect old clothes from them to sell and the money will be donated to some charities. basically it's a giant MJ CIP project. first of it's kind i might add. somehow i have a feeling the residents will be slightly overwhelmed by the sight of so many Meridians early on a Saturday morning but it's all for a good cause, so hopefully we'll get to help the charities more with this project.

In the end we ended up at a mama shop under block 516 after checking out of respective blocks and we lepaked along the road while listening to someone play his guitar on the second floor. it was just us sitting there, 5 friends whose paths crossed meeting each other in MJ. looking up at the clear blue skies and HDB blocks that surrounded us, the reminders of our childhood behind us in the form of  20 cent rides on toy car machines, $1 dollar surprises from the rows of toy boxes and the endless bulletins on the wall, it was all a little nostalgic. from people who grew up separately with the same kinda experiences, to people who met and revisited these moments together. i've mentioned it a lot, but i'm so dang glad i became the cg rep because i got to meet them.

a part of everyone's childhood.

OUR PRIZE (:

on the days when you're tired and think that school is weighing you down with OGL, CCA commitments and other stuff on our plate it's sometimes the friends and company you keep with you that gives you the strength to keep persevering. it may be a little early in the year for us to feel tired, but all the teachers are right when they say we cannot take this journey alone. finding them outside of the 12s class girls has been another great blessing and i know that 2013 will be much more bearable with them by my side because all my old friends are moving on to Uni and Army.
yet i know that as this bunch of kids are becoming to be, my old friends are still very much important to me. i'm honestly a lucky girl with all of them and the family i have.

with all in mind, i'm starting to feel that i might just survive 2013 a little better than i thought i would.