March 16.

Rihanna - California King Bed

haven't written in awhile and it feels a little like i'm losing my writing flair, but i'll try my best.

so, i've been alone at home alone again these few days.

mum and dad brought my grandparents overseas to try and get them in better spirits. it's been a month and 9 days, but i guess they still miss her every single day. it's understandable really. life at home alone is always so quiet. not that it's very noisy around with my parents around to begin with but at least mum would turn the tv on and dad would whistle around the house. now that it's just me, it's awfully quiet.

i go about with the daily life; studying for MBTs, school, tuition, sleep etc. but without them around the house i find myself doing the little things they would do when they're home: water the plants, iron some clothes, vacuum the floor, tidy up the house, all the things i would usually be too lazy to do. i guess i miss my parents, which is weird cause i usually never miss them. 

to be honest, as much as i like having the space to do as i please, i really do hate sleeping alone in an empty house at night.... so much that i've acquired the habit of leaving the hallway light on when i sleep. it just doesn't feel right, this house is too big for just me.

then again, i've been too preoccupied with revision to really let the emptiness bother me. speaking of which, revision for MBTs.... well, that is another issue huh. truth be told i tend to want to sleep whenever i get the chance to now cause i really am that tired lately. at the rate i'm going i'll never be ready for MBTs in time... how now brown cow? 

everyone's struggling.
even the more academically inclined people i know struggle to keep up with finishing school work lately. i know it's not a good thing, but i'm a little relieved to know that everyone's struggling. at least it's not just me right? but still, it's a lousy excuse. i just hope MBTs will be better than what i think it's gonna be. GP this coming Monday and even miss liyana said it's out to do us in. well now, we'll just have to see how this will all play out.

March 16th.

i started out with a thought that this year would pass by really quickly, that though it would be difficult, there will always be a way out. someone told me at the beginning of the year that i would be surprised at how slowly the year would seem to go by, especially given all the "breaks". a part of me had hoped that he would be right, but here we are, half way done with March. i guess i was right about the first part, i sure hope i'm right about the second part too though.