Back to my late nights these few days, but for better reasons: having movie marathon nights on my own. Animation movies are just cute to watch (don't judge me hahaha) So I've practically been in bed with hot chocolate and endless reruns of movies I've loved growing up. I could get used to nights like these.
That friend of mine finally opened up to us again. I haven't seen that person so relaxed and unguarded in awhile. "I'm done with the emo thing, I should be thankful. I know what's going on around me" Hearing those words was a relief I think. All I could say was " That sounds good, really good." In a sense we're both similar. Our reasons may vary, but at the end we were both unhappy. I'm just glad that friend's much better now.
I told someone today: "Honestly I've had a pretty shitty past 5 months. I knew it was about my mentality, how I saw things. But I just couldn't seem to fight those feelings, and they took over me. I can say I'm happier now though. And I'm happier only BECAUSE of my mentality. HOW IRONIC IS THAT?!"
Truth is that's the way life is. At the end it's how we choose to see things, how we eventually learn to adjust our feelings/thoughts/perspectives to whatever it is that happens.
Things still aren't the way they used to be.
I still get reminded, I still miss him and I know my heart still feels the same way. And maybe, just maybe, I might not get a chance to go to the local Uni like my other friends. But that's alright, even with all of this I can still be happy. I will try every day to be. Because I should be, for there are so many reasons in life now for me to be.
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