Permanence.

Another Sunday.
Cooked lunch for mummy today. Thought it'll be nice to do something for her in return seeing how she's always the one cooking for me. Made everything from scratch except the pizza crust, and it took me 2 hours MY GOODNESS. Was almost too tired to have the meal with her after cooking. Haha

Perfect day to just sit out on the balcony and lunch with mumz 

Seafood Pizza. Clam Chowder Soup. Potato Salad

Glad she enjoyed my food today. It's the small things I guess. We may not always agree, and we have days when we are like best friends, others when we are each others worst enemy. But at the end she's the person whose loved me all my life, long before I existed. That's enough to be grateful for, so much to be grateful for.

Day 132.

Still learning the ways my heart works. Still learning to not be affected when I see him smiling with her. I've always known that people aren't permanent; that we change. It's a good thing too, that we change. Just I guess we always hoped some things wouldn't, that somehow it would withstand time and trials.

19th week tomorrow and I'm still learning, a little more each day. I'm contended now though, with the people and things I'm lucky to have. And even though I'm not in his life, I'm glad he's happy.
One day, my heart will learn to stop aching. For this heartache too, isn't permanence.