Home.

Back for a day and I'm already missing this beach and the sea.
If there's ever such a thing as rebirth into a second life I would like to be a sea creature, some super cool fish maybe. Starfish is kinda cool too. Either that or I hope to be a bird, cause flying's cool HAHAHAHA Water or sky, I'm fine either ways. Being a human is at times too complex, though we do have our little perks here and there.

Anyways, back to erratic weather and confined spaces here. I miss the night sky there, where it's so dark I literally counted more than a 100 stars laying in that hammock by the beach. Where I'm barefooted in the sand, reading by the beach, out at sea doing stuff or by the pool all day under the sun. Black and burnt like nobody's business and I don't really even mind the pain. MAJOR WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS right now :(

This trip was good time away from the city, people, cars, noise, light pollution and whatever else not, something I tend to like a lot. Better yet I practically got to live by and in the waters for the past 4 days. Maybe one day when I get tired enough of life in it's present day I'll find some island and never come back? Hahaha, as if. All but wishful thinking this is.

In a sense it's still good to be home. Got to cuddle with my eldest sis and bug her while gaming together and gave my grandparents huge hugs as if I haven't seen them in years. Don't know why but I'm just really happy to see them tonight. Me is becoming all sorts of weird lately hahaha

On another note, kjs finally POP-ed tonight :)
It's been such a fast yet also incredibly slow 9 weeks, but he made it through ndu's bmt alivveee. Still extremely proud of him for the past 2 months and 1 week regardless of outcome. It's been tough, but he tried his best and that's more than enough. He'll still forever be #diverkhoo to me though :)

And I'm happy for Him too, for pop-ing together with kjs and going on to cdc. We're no longer part of each other's lives but it's good to know he's well, happy and that things are going his way.

" No good deed ever goes unpunished,

but whether a deed is good or bad appears to turn not on the nature or quality of the deed itself 

but rather the amount of hatred that exists for those 

who are it's intended beneficiary."

- The Trial of Fallen Angels

Finally finished this book after what seemed like an eternity. The plot surprised me a little, though the ending was what I figured it would be. Among all, this quote struck me the most. And I realised that It seems our intentions and thoughts are not what deems our actions good or bad, but rather how we feel towards the person we do it for and how they'll eventually view it. I do really like it when a book gives me something to think about.