Lonely.

4.17 am

Can't sleep.
Or rather, I can't sleep peacefully. I don't know if I dream. If I do, I remember nothing. It's just falling asleep and suddenly waking up in shock. It happens several times throughout the night, and it's the second night already. Why am I feeling so uneasy and restless?

It's been awhile since I've felt like this and for no seemingly good reason. Feeling tired of things in my life, and suddenly lonely. Odd isn't it? There have been days when I sometimes felt alone, but this might be the first time I'm feeling Lonely. It's such a strange feeling.

There's also a person I can't seem to stop worrying about these few days, someone I would like to help. But I don't really think that person needs it or necessarily wants it. Usually I somehow manage to find the right words for most people but this one person, even though we've known each other for almost 2 years, I sometimes just don't know how to help.

Can I just leave this all behind and be on my own for awhile? For some reason I just want to be alone and away from everything and everyone now. This feeling of being tired of life (for a lack of a better word)..... it's honestly becoming really, really tiring.