been listening to Adele non-stop for the past 3 days, and this is slowly becoming one of my favourite songs. it's not written by her but the way she sings it, it just makes the meaning behind this song come alive even more. i know she talks endlessly before she actually even sings, but it's nice to see someone of her success be so down to earth and normal. so this is prove that not all celebs ride on their high horses huh?
anyway, back to the topic at hand. i do realise this is something that i've been meaning to talk about, just i never got round to doing it. so i've been reading my close friends blogs, talking to them on the phone and hearing their small worries, big problems, etc. more often than not, the topic of love is mentioned in all the above ways of communication.
ah, young love. it's such a magical yet seriously complicated thing. :/
what is it really though? when you meet someone and you find them special. is it this connection that's being built between you two? and you might or might not realise it, but that person slowly finds his/her way into your heart. you smile more around him/her, you're more concerned about that person than you would of your normal friends. he/she is constantly on your mind and when they're not around you, you miss them. all you want at times, is just to go running towards that person and stay by their side.
so i hear when you're in love it's like marshmallows, blue skies, warm fuzzy feelings in your tummy and it's just good to have someone around you to rely on and turn to in your down times. it's not always perfect, but the connection shared overcomes all those arguments, disagreements and misunderstandings.
i've never been in a relationship, so i guess i'm not the best person to tell you what it's like. but seeing the close friends around me who are in sort-of-long-term-relationships, i feel happy for them. even in their down times, i can still feel the love between them. they are compliments to each other really. they give in when they can, argue when they must, then apologise and become stronger as a couple. yes, there is a tinge of jealousy (: but more of it is the happiness i feel for my close buddies when they are happy with their other half.
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| love is like flying without wings? seemingly impossible, and very magical. |
still, i know not every relationship has a happily ever after . i've seen so many that have failed before it even began, i've seen friends who couldn't let go, friends who cried endlessly for weeks and no amount of ice cream or comfort words could help them. the thing about love is that as beautiful as it is, it can definitely hurt too.
i guess whether or not we admit it, at some point in time, we all are in search for a person whom we can call ours. someone who'll love you regardless of how crazy you can get, and is willing to try and accept all your little flaws and imperfections. for those who are thinking it ain't that hard to find someone like that, i can at least tell you this: IT'S HARD. LIKE REALLY HARD.
suppose i'm still searching. i may have already found that person, but i guess i may have missed out on him, or maybe not. (this is why i say it's complicated.) no one really knows what's going on right now. it's just a blanket of blur and mixed emotions that ride high into the empty, quiet, lonely nights. i just hope that i haven't stupidly missed out on this person, and that hopefully it's still the same.
yet, inspite of this small, tiny heartfelt wish of mine, i still find myself being happy on my own. perhaps it sounds a little more like wallowing in self-pity and like i'm trying to convince myself that i'm alright on my own, to which i cannot deny that there are indeed times when it feels like that. BUT, there are definitely moments where i find that being happy on my own is something precious and amazing that not many can achieve. i do feel like that from time to time, in my sheryl moments (:
and so at the end of the day, i'm not quite sure what my point really is. i guess i'm just rambling thoughts off my head.
see LOVE, it's a special thing. something that's hard to understand, rare to come by and magical enough to change your life. so if ever a day it comes knocking on your door, open yourself up to the possibilities. you'll never know till you try.
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