well now, this is alot faster than i thought it would be. heh. revision's going along the track i guess, but i could definetely do better. had lunch with jess and denise after econs consult today and all around we see sec 4 kids mugging for their O's. i couldn't help but wondered out loud: they're studying as if their O's are tomorrow. and us? we're having a leisure lunch when our MYEs are next week. hmm, what's wrong with this picture?
jess and denise just shook their heads, smiled and said together: if they continue like that, sure burnout soon. i do wonder how those little kiddos will fare when it comes to A's and uni life..hmm.
anyways, an interesting thought came to mind today:
If one day i were to have selective amnesia, who and what will my mind choose to remember?
i think of the familiar faces , the memories i wanna keep, the people who have changed my lives, the good times i've had. but the thing about amnesia is that you're suppose to forget. so then, who and what will i remember? maybe it's more important to remember people than to remember memories. afterall, without people, there can be no memories.
imagine not remembering your best friend's face, or the happiest day of your life up till then. imagine not remembering your own name, where you lived, the people you know. it's actually pretty scary. and all the times you've spend with respective people? it'll become their memory alone. if they choose not to tell you, you'll never know.
i've been dreaming alot lately. 3 dreams last night and not sure how many the nights before. i do wonder what is up with all this dreaming. the weirdest thing would be that in all my dreams, there is this one person who appears. i'm not kidding. this person shows up in ALL my dreams these past few nights.
i wonder what i ever did to be able to end up dreaming so much about one person. hmm, i don't dislike or have anything against this person yet it's just weird to see someone so much. especially in your dreams.
oh well, if this continues then i'll take it as a sign. till then, i'll just pretend that my overactive mind is preventing me from sleeping well. i really do need to stop all this dreaming and waking up at 6 in the morning.
back to the topic at hand, i couldn't help but wonder if i've managed to make enough a difference to anyone for them to try to make me remember them if i ever did forget them. hopefully i'm worth that effort.
as for the people i hope to never forget, i'll keep them in a corner of my heart and mind. so that if one day i really do forget them, at least there will be a tugging feeling in my heart telling me to remember.
if ever comes a day where i no longer remember you, will you try to make me remember?
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