the after rain effect.

another rainy night.

honestly, i quite like it. this weather has been much needed these past few days. i'm home alone again tonight, or rather i returned to an empty home. all the adults on dad's side went for a wedding dinner and i came back from dinner with the cousins. my parents being worried about my current state told all my cousins to drag me out for dinner. apparently my family doesn't feel comfortable with me spending too much time on my own now.

just as well. some company is always good, at least i get to see them and we get to talk. the train ride home alone was long and quiet. surprisingly crowded for a late sun night, 10 plus and the train is still full. i spent the whole journey watching the rain fall on the glass and people below scurrying around with their umbrellas trying to get out of the rain. i wonder why they don't just stop and enjoy the rain for a bit. soak in the feeling and the coldness in the air, feel the raindrops on your face and fingers. i know i would do that, and i can see why people might think i'm crazy.

the bus ride home was longer just cause i was in the mood for a longer ride. so i took the bus that would make me walk past the park, and down my favourite way home. not knowing today reminded me a lot of a feeling i always have when going home with someone. the feeling i get on that same bus, and when walking the same way home. that quietly comforting feeling that makes people feel safe and oddly happy. i guess i'm starting to hallucinate due to the rain. 

i like strolling on that specific way home, one of the quirks i have. especially so when it's drizzling, and so tonight was the perfect combination. needless to say that 5 min walk took me more than 10 mins. 11 pm and half the lights in my area are turned off, the park is quiet and the park lights are dim but there's something in the air i breathe and the puddle filled ground i walk on. something peaceful. maybe that's why i like the after rain feeling as much as i like rain itself.

or perhaps i'm just starting to talk rubbish due to my lack of sleep these nights. 11.45 and my house is still empty except for me . it's quiet here, almost a little lonely even. guess it's time for me to head to bed and sleep this feeling away.