we keep on waiting.

not really a want or a need in sight, just silent waiting.

funny enough how by now i should know where i stand, but after that meeting last week, we still don't know. and so begins another round of waiting. i took the time to think about what it is it with us and waiting, as in what is with everyone and waiting in general. have you ever wondered how much time in your life was spent just waiting?

waiting for the bus to come, for friday to arrive when you're only at monday, waiting for something exciting to happen, for a miracle to take place maybe? waiting for the exam that determines the path you'll take, waiting for your results. waiting for your first pay cheque, for the first time you drive, waiting for the time you turn 18 and become legal, or the day you find the special someone. waiting for your cup noodles to be done, or for your mail to be delivered. the list goes on, and we? we just learn that in every thing we do, there will always be waiting.

we don't just wait idly, we wait with a purpose. a purpose that we hope to achieve when the waiting is over. but the purpose is not always fulfilled, and sometimes we wait in vain only to end up disappointed or to be hurt. yet we always learn something from the wait, be it a good or bad outcome there is always something to be learnt.

the days go by with me waking up wondering if the call will come today, or maybe tomorrow? will it be now or later in the afternoon? i've heard somewhere that it's the waiting that often kills people and i think this is something that everyone can identify with. everyone has had that one moment where all we could do was just to wait and the waiting just left us restless, anxious. or perhaps excited and happy that it was coming? i guess it depends on what you're waiting for exactly.

the J1s now can't wait for pw to be over, and the J2s now can't wait for A's to be over. i'm not sure how i'm feeling towards this wait. but i've realised that it's almost always about us wanting something to come faster and for the wait to be over. i wonder why. and i'm also starting to wonder if what i've written here makes any sense at all to anyone.