will we ever stop?

rain again.
seems like the most common weather these weeks is it not? my usual routine of being in bed and curling up in pj's. it's almost always like that now. not used to the silence in my house, but it's just me alone again today and for the next few days it'll be like that. times like these make me wish that i had a sibling, or a good friend who stayed next door or just someone. but with everyone busy with their own life and A's coming, it's just me.

nights like these are nights where people feel so alone. alone not only cause it's just you by yourself, but alone cause the world suddenly seems so vast and the people in it so distant. that feeling can be scary. looking out the window and the road is empty, wet and quiet. walking around my house suddenly amazed at how empty and big it is if only one person lived here.

i guess as much as i'm able to live on my own, i might not like it very much. well, we'll never know if the skill of being able to live on your own might come in handy though. so i think i'll still learn how to look after myself and all that.

ever since my last update, i've been getting texts from people. whatever i wanted to say to you guys, i've almost already said it all. but yeah, after hearing all that some of you have to say, i've realized that i have made some very precious friends in this lifetime and that always brings great comfort.

"you look tired" is the most common line i hear when my friends see me these days. do i really? i've been trying hard to hide that tiredness by double checking my reflection before i head anywhere. guess i'm not very good at differentiating how i really look anymore. then again, who isn't tired? it's common to be tired and look tired. life does that to all of us sometimes.

lately i've been waiting around just so time will pass. it's almost as if i'm just waiting for something magical to appear before me, a unicorn perhaps? but no, that's not reality is it? while some people in this world and so many around me find that there isn't time left for them, i rather find time to be hanging around me too much. i'm just too idle and no one's that good at just sitting around, waiting right? soon i will find time slipping by me too, some time this week i'm afraid.

seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, years. will there ever come a day when we can stop counting time? whether we have too much of it or too little of it, we need to stop running after time and things. be it things society thinks we should have or things we ourselves want to achieve. won't it be nice if for awhile, just awhile, all these didn't matter? just for awhile, the world would stop. so at least we can learn to appreciate the small things in life.