Shadow.

Sleep is always the cure to everything. Well not really. Meh.

Waking up in the morning to the thoughts you fell asleep with last night doesn't really make the day seem that cheery.

I know it's just a phase. I have moments like that from time to time. 

I know that it will pass

It's always the same feeling, for a period of time. I'll think about it and it'll get to me. My best friend will tell me to give myself a break and not stress about it. She'll tell me I'm doing great with school, that I'm not hard to love, that it'll be okay. That I just need to take a break and breathe, think about myself more in all that I do because I put others before me too much, that's why I'll be unhappy. She'll give me a hug and tell me to think about it when I'm calmer.

But I just wanna stop thinking about it and push it aside like I've always done and go back to being the me everyone is used to seeing - the me that smiles non-stop cause there's a lot in life to be thankful for.

Every time this happens I hate myself cause I feel weak. Because every time I think about my life, I feel tired and I end up crying.

It's exhausting,
Trying to shake off this shadow

Of being miserably unhappy when I don't even know why I even need to feel this way. Why should I feel this way? I'm not starving, or broke, not sick or that anyone around me is dying.

I am just unhappy

And me being so unhappy makes me feel like I'm an ungrateful person.