Status Quo.

"WE ALL WANT THINGS WE CAN'T HAVE.

BEING A DECENT HUMAN BEING

IS ACCEPTING THAT."

- John Fowles

Admitting what your head already knows is sometimes the bravest thing one can do,

Even if your heart can't quite grasp it yet.

There are some things and people in this world, we can never have. They are the ones perhaps best left to regret. This much at least I know.

I've never regretted anything, anyone. 

and I've always said that it would be so, but these days I'm not so sure anymore. Some decisions in my life could provide the respite I've been looking for. But doing so will set me back from others - then again I've stopped being bothered by whether I was on par in life with other people. I still can't seem to decide though, what it is that I really want for the next 2 years of my life. What impact this will have on the people around me.

And then there are the people I choose to regret. 

I will look back and think this could have been such a wonderful "maybe" but the cost of that choice would be too much for either of us to handle. I've learnt to put the happiness of the people who matter to me ahead of my own. Simply because I wouldn't be happy if my choices made them uncomfortable.

We all want things we can't have.

The difference is, at least in this phrase of my life, I won't insist on having it my way. 

Everyone would be happier with status quo.

And I can, and will, learn to live with that.