hello, my friend.

 well now, it's a little early for christmas huh. i agree too. but nonetheless, i went to orchard to see the chirstmas lightings.

 so today i spent the entire day with a friend. we spent the day talking, walking around town, eating, window shopping, seeing the lightings and i suppose just getting to know each other better. i've know this friend for almost a year now, yet today was most probably the first time i feel like i really know this person. walking around town and slacking around scape, we talked about our childhood, our friends, our families, each others likes and dislikes, first impressions and random memories from our own past.

some friends make you feel safe and contented when you're with them, i suppose this is one such person. even silence that's ment to be awkward feels comfortable with this person. and though that friend of mine may never read this, but i just wanna say:

dear friend,
thank you for everything in the past 11 months. all the extremely lame jokes you tell me, your crazily huge ego, your ridiculous humor and your quiet support. for all the times that you've cheered me up and made me smile or laugh when i thought i couldn't, i can never say thank you enough. you always tell me to never thank you, and you always say that what you do might not be good enough, but what you don't know is that what you've done is really more than enough. i made you a promise once, that one day i'll stand up again. i haven't forgotten, and when the time comes i will fufil my promise to you. even though we may not be by each others side next year, but i'll never forget that we're actually never that far apart. above all, i'm so glad i had a chance to meet you and know you. come what may, i most probably will never forget you.

aside from that, i'll be leaving for a trip later so i won't be blogging for awhile. a week out of singapore and a few days in the mountains is, i suppose, the last step to changing myself for the better (though this sounds really weird). but when i come back, i hope it's as a slightly different person.
it's going to be really hard, but maybe it's finally time for me to let some parts of my past go, so that i can cherish the more important and face my future better.

tomorrow is yet another new beginning, but this time i'll start will a little more faith and hope.
wish me luck. (: