Broken.

Day 38.

Another port day.
Spend the day with the girls at Starbucks again and dinner with the #Gangof3. It was weird today, revisiting all the places I've avoided the past 1 month 1 week and 1 day.

Had lunch at CARC today cause I missed the food. The China uncle was real nice to me, just like how you always said he is a nice person. Met Gladys for lunch at 4pm and that crazy girl showed up looking likka Korean. HAHAHA she amazes me all the time. Then we headed back to T1 departure hall Starbux to meet Xinru for some quality htht. Been meeting them so often lately, but I'm loving every bit of it. They make things better, always.

It's the first time I've been to all the places in the port that we used to go often since then. Every where was your shadow, I won't deny it. Gladys asked why I agreed to go to the T1 Starbux after I told them it was our old place, and I told her eventually I would have to live like normal. I couldn't keep avoiding everything and everyone the way I did just cause they all reminded me of you.
This was a start, facing my fears, facing reality.

Dinner with #Gangof3 at Itacho was as entertaining as always. I swear I have a love hate relationship with Wit. HAHA but Dawn knows me better than myself sometimes so I love them both. Funny enough all the conversations somehow dragged you into the picture, guess it's inevitable cause we're talking MJ stuff. But we all brushed it with off with a laugh, a "let's not go there" and a topic change. Thanks for understanding guys, thanks for seeing it without me having to say what I was thinking.

Wit mentioned you were coming home today. And I said I didn't know.
Truth is, I did know. You told me back then you were coming back today, I just couldn't say I knew. I just pretend I didn't so it didn't seem like I still remembered everything about you.

I found out today that Ru's attached now. The girls tried to hide it from me cause well, yeah... but I found out on my own in the end. I really am happy for her, she finally found a guy who loves her the way she deserves :) and I really appreciate them sparing a thought for my feelings. Reason why they are my besties.
But with good news there's always bad. I found out about a few couples who split recently. Nothing really surprises me any more, anything really can happen. Even the best of couples might not make it, that's the way it is. Such a shame isn't it?

It would seem like there are too many broken people out there. Just too many.