2014.

Day 37.

First day of 2014.
It doesn't feel much different, but I heard the church bells today at 12pm. New month, new Year.

Didn't sleep much again last night, I need to kick the habit of all my late nights. It's been getting worst since I came back from Bkk... I've been sleeping at 6 plus in the morning, when the sun rises -.- and then my body clock wakes me up by 10 plus 11. At this rate I'll never recover.

Had our tradition dinner with mum's side today. Every year on the 1st of Jan we will gather for dinner together. It's been this way for as long as I can remember and it's always nice to see the fam again even though we gather often. It's just seeing them on this date is a reminder that it's another new year again.

It's always too fast.
Each year is always that fast. Sigh. Is it cause we get older and there are more things to do/things we wanna do so time just slips away so quickly? Kinda wished it could all slow down and be a little slower just so we can remember the things that really matter a little more. But I guess it doesn't work that way huh.

So, New Years resolutions. Erhhh, I don't really have a habit of this, I guess I just live it as it comes to me, and then at the end of each year I remember the things the year has taught me. I'm such a weirdo.. HAHA. Guess if I really had to have one for the year, it'll be what's written up there: Be Brave.
I think I'm really gonna need it this year, changes are coming. Whatever happens, I just hope to be able to be brave and face all of it and have the courage to make the right decisions when I have to. Just to be brave.

I watched New Year's Eve on my own last night. It's really such a touching, funny and heart warming movie. I was laughing and crying like an idiot on my own in the room. HAHA. Don't know why I didn't watch that movie earlier. At least I got to watch it now!

Is it cause it's New Year's Day?
I see so many more photos of couples and see so many out on the streets too. New Year's Eve was a movie centered around couples too... a little weird honestly. Made me think a lot about you, I have to admit. But I guess I can't avoid any of this. I just have to get used to this. I missed you today. I told myself I wouldn't say this out loud anymore, but here I am breaking the promise I made to myself when it's only the first day of the year. I really need to be better at keeping promises.

Xinru once said " it's alright even if you're going to keep missing him. It's perfectly normal. You just have to make sure that you miss him less each day, until you're okay again."
I can't say she's wrong, I just hope I'll miss you less each day the way she says it should be.
Not more, like right now.