Happy pills.

Day 93.

1.16am

Sometimes you'll be surprised how much keeping yourself occupied with the right people can be so oddly rewarding and helpful. Been feeling so down in the dump but it turns out the right people and the right mindset makes a whole of a difference (if only I can keep this up. hahaha) At the end of the day, talking things out helped. All I needed was that first step courage to admit things. Things aren't all that rosy still, but between me and her, at least we're finally both making the effort to try again.

CNY day 3 w my Jie's 

Grandpa and Grandma <3 <3 <3
the two people who truly love me most. Really am so thankful for them.

SELFIE WITH A DIVER #achivementunlock

because this is how ALL the fishes look
(p.s best natural lighting ever. LOOK AT THAT FLAWLESS SKIN
with no filter or makeup somemore)

And then a selfie with a shark
#myphototakingskillssuperZAI  HAHAHA

If you ain't a little crazy together, you ain't family:
Love my Jies: thank you for always looking out for me

oh look, it's a shark just swimming byyy

Swimz with dawny pie last Mon. Pool time and a good book + htht + sun + her made me feel oddly at peace. I've said it a gazillion times, but water is really where I am most comfortable.

JayJay : Dawny pie's cutie pie

Picnic dinner with Lixin on Friday night at Pasir ris park @ the roadrace area.

It was really nice to catch up with the girl and play music, laugh, talk, complain, listen, take advice and ETC ETC (the list can be endless) Really glad to have met this precious friend in 12S417.

Screaming frustrations at the beach like some mad women was fun too. Hehehe

Home made wantons cause I felt like it.
Cooking takes my mind off so much stuff lately

mumz being nosy and taking photos
while I was baking the other day. she kept laughing
saying that none of the photos were clear cause I kept moving
WELL, THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF BAKING. hahaha 

Went to the pet store and I saw Snuff's cousin :)
Really miss that puffball and his constant licks

Flor Patisserie: Mont Blanc cake

Lady M: Mille Crêpe cake

People keep buying me cake. Why? I've never really been a huge cake fan. But I have to admit, both of these are really naise :) I prefer the Flor Patisserie one though. It's less diabetes and real fluffy. Lady M's crepes deserve all the hype though. Other than being too sweet (for my taste now) and a little too melty, the texture is naiseee :) and I now sound like some act-step food taster.... HAHAHA 

Last night with Jie:
Messing around, being retarded, laughing and cooking @ 1am
Grateful for this older sister whom I always turn to at difficult points in life.
I may be annoying and cray
 but thank you for always guiding me and standing by me

And lastly, this brown bunny.
Been wanting it for almost a year now but I
still can't find this brown Le Sucre sailor bunny with blue stripes ):
it's been so long, maybe it's not ment to be ):

Pretty much all the happiness I can think of the past few days and a little backlogged from CNY period. Results in T-minus 5 days and... I am currently not THAT nervous (what happened? who is this, where is the real me? LOL) okay, in all honesty I think it just hasn't hit me yet. (who am I kidding -.-" I was so stressed up about it the past week) Guess trying not to think about it does work once in awhile, when the right things happen with the right company :)

So how's the Cherry blossom flowers there?
I was honestly quite shock when wit told me you were going to Jap a few days before you left. Then after awhile the shock became a sad smile, with that realization of how little I now know. Then again, that's the way it's suppose to be. You once said the trip wasn't gonna go through. Turns out a lot has changed in the past 2 months. Yeah, a lot has honestly changed. But change is the only constant, that's life~
Still odd though, that you get to see what I wanted to see: the Cherry blossom flowers.
Guess there really is such a thing as pure coincidence in life. Guess there really is such a thing as Fate (after so many coincidences that happened between us these 2 months, one would think I know that by now. hahaha) 

But the end of the day, all of this means nothing. It's all nothing but pure coincidence.
Yeah, I'm now learning to stop being delusional.