Valentine's.

Rare sight today: pretty rainbow

Day 81.
14.02.14

Last day of CNY, and Valentine's Day. Dinner with mum's side on the last day of CNY as always. All the good food that only grandma can cook is the bonus on top of the fun we have at gatherings at home and it's usually the solution to any weight loss I have, except its still not really working this time round... My weight's still going down, just slower. Meh.
Had a nice walk with 大姐 tonight and we laughed so much as we talked about when we were kids. I got reminded of the days when I was 4 and she would bring me downstairs to the playground to play on the swings. As we grow older, things like that become the precious memories that remind you of how important family really is. Received my first ever bouquet from 大姨 tonight too, it was so nice of her to make one for all the ladies in the family. Yeah, my family's awesome like that (:

So, Valentine's Day.
Or as I use like to call it in the past years: Friends day. This year though, it's just another Friday. With the exceptions of couples everywhere, flowers, chocolate, advertisements, gifts, radio and TV love songs/dedications, oh and my Google search has a couple and a giant heart in it. Yeap, it's just another ordinary Friday yeah. HAHAHA.

Couldn't sleep last night so I tried reading, but ended up thinking. Again.
Remembering stuff that I most probably shouldn't, looking back at our photos, letting myself remember all the moments and little things that maybe, by now, you might have forgotten and re-discovering my love for Will Champlin's voice + covers. Before I knew it, it was 6am and I was still sleepless... That guy, has a really good voice though. New current addictions: Radioactive and Love me again (favourite's his cover of Gavin DeGraw's "Not over you")

Currently contemplating if I should lie to myself and say I haven't thought about you today. Hmm, most probably not though, it wouldn't work anyways. Not when the people who know have been going all out of their way to avoid the fact they know what's on my mind today. Then again, V-day has never really been that important to me all these years... Just this year is a little sad I guess. It was great back in TKG though: free hugs day, candy and baked goods and balloons, flowers, cards, videos. Everything really. I would like to say it's more elaborate than if we actually had guys around in the school. Man, I really miss the TKG version of Valentine's Day.

I have to admit though: Today without you, was emptier than all the other days.
Might be also cause it's your birthday tomorrow and there's nothing much I can do either. It's sitting ducks and waiting for time to pass, hoping that nothing reminds me of you when in actual fact: everything does.

Today isn't really just for the couples though, it's also suppose to be about family and friends. Both I'm lucky enough to have <3 Sometimes I tend to take the people around me for granted, simply because they've been with me all my life. To me they're a habit, one that I am thankful for but at times forget to appreciate. Valentine's is to celebrate love right? So yeah, I took today to give mum and dad a hug and say I love them (something I haven't done in awhile)

Happy Valentine's day everyone. Whether it was spent with your loved one, family, friends or even on your own, hopefully it was a great one for you. After all, it's a day to celebrate the people you love, and the people who love you.
And to you:
I don't really know the right words to say. But yeah, hopefully your night with the family was good too. Happy Vday.

"I don't write about him because I don't know where to begin, because all the words in the world wouldn't be able to describe what he really means to me. 

I don't write about him because sentences and paragraphs have an end, 
and I don't want him to."