Time, is not perfect.

Day 77.

Cherry Blossoms in Japan.
I suddenly feel like looking at flowers. Which is weird, because I've never been a flowers sorta girl. A sudden feel that they're pretty and smell nice. MJ has this flower tree next to the C block that blooms a lot when the weather is hot and when the flowers fall it's one of the prettiest slights. Maybe one day I'll get to go to Japan and see this for myself. That'll be nice.

Spent the day with the Strictly Pancakes gang (odd name, cause I've never been to strictly pancakes with them but yeah... since we're not exactly classmates/cca mates or anything like that this is the best group name that was thought of) at Jing Shen's place with FIFA, movies, food and dance central. Been hanging out a lot with them lately, I see them more than anyone else from MJ really. The guys have been trying to teach Dawny and me FIFA and it's honestly hilarious. THEY CAN'T STOP CURSING throughout every game. HAHAHA, and their reactions plus retarded playing (sometimes) is so funny I end up having cramps from laughing instead of really even learning how to play.

Gonna be real sad when we send all of them off to army. :( They keep us girls entertained, really REALLY entertained for that matter. Haven't spoken to Chris properly in forever, even today over movies and stuff. Haix, it's odd not being as close as we were before with us both busy with our own stuff and in all honesty, I haven't been making the effort to go talk to her for the past few months when she hasn't been talking to me. Sometimes I'm a really horrible friend. I just have some issues I can't seem to get past I guess.

This is going to be a busy week.
Work, outings, family dinners, errands and some stuff I have to prepare for... I suppose it's a good thing. I'm occupied after all. "Keeping occupied is essential to the art of not thinking too much" I just made that up, but hey. It's really true okay. Really wished I could sleep better though, all this waking up at 4/5 am is making me feel really tired. Guess I'm just jittery that results are coming (it's all so fast) and the dreams too maybe...

11th week.
There are moments when I suddenly feel like I really, really, really miss you. And your face, how you look like... it's becoming unfamiliar to me. I miss the way you let me fall asleep on you and that safe feeling I get when I wake up after a nap in your arms. When I used to crave sweet things and you would give a face and say it's all Diabetes but still eat it with me anyways, cause you know I can't finish it all on my own.

They say: " Time will make it easier, you'll forget. It'll hurt less and after awhile you won't even feel it anymore." Well, maybe they lied. Maybe Time, is not perfect.
Maybe it doesn't make everything go away.... or maybe, 11 weeks isn't enough time yet to let the feelings I have for you fade.