Maybe, One day.

Day 110.

Eye infection for the first time in my life. -.- Walking around like some sort of red and white eyed monster. It's quite funny honestly.

Nus open house today
Another place I won't be going to but still I attend their open house. For the friends I suppose, just to accompany them and to find out what I can about what I'm about to study else where. Still feels weird though, like raising hopes that aren't suppose to be there.

Spent the day with Chris, zzl and your class guys. Weird. Very weird.
Ended up having lunch alone with the guys while Chris and zzl went for the science talks. I wasn't that comfortable at first, reasons obvious. They knew about us. Yet after awhile, talking to them reminded me that they are also, in a sense, my friends too.

Odd isn't it? How I seem to fit in with them even though I shouldn't. It should be awkward. I shouldn't be able to sit with your friends and talk, laugh, eat and walk around open house together. And yet, that's exactly what I did. Guess it's cause they are really nice people. Easy to get along and oddly accepting in so many subtle ways. A little like the guys in Le L's. All nice people, such nice people.

They talk like you though. All of them.
Like being around bits and pieces of you. From the "oh my goodness" to the "shag", the constant suaning and the talks about dota. It's like you. All like you but it's not you.

It was still a relatively good day though. Amidst the constant reminders of you, seeing E. At least I got to find out more about what I intend to study and I caught up with zzl and Chris too. Found out more about psyh with siah too and saw dawny pie. Even though I've been pushing everyone away, I guess I still miss them in a sense.

Went to see the doctor today though, mum and dad are pretty insistent when it comes to this. Unfortunately even I can't win them. Turn's out I'm losing a little too much weight for my own good and doc said if I don't start eating properly again I'm going to have some serious gastric issues in the next few months...... I expected that I suppose.

Sometimes we do things like that to ourselves, even if we don't mean to: we run ourselves into the ground.