What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

Being sick like this is not cool.

Went to the A&E clinic after puking straight for 5 hours with stomach cramps and fever the night before. Sounds like I had a bad night? I did. My doctor was right about me getting severe gastric cause I haven't been eating. That with stomach flu was enough for all of the above...

Ended up getting a jab and getting put on drip for all the fluids I lost. For one I really hate injections/needles poking me of any kind. I really really am scared of needles that are designed to poke people... so it was a pretty miserable few hours just lying there. But it was worth it, seeing how much better I feel now. Just the occasional stomach cramps and my now standard small appetite, other than that I'm back to the way I was.

I am however convinced the doctor in charge of me gave me paralysis pills by accident or something. (LOL) It's suppose to be relaxant meds to help sleep better but it causes me to be physically immobile while I'm mentally awake?! And that's a truly scary feeling....

On another note, there's a friend I've/we've been trying to talk to. Someone who doesn't seem to want to talk to any of us at all. So to that friend who might be reading this:

Don't shut people out anymore please? I know how that feels like now. I tried it, and it doesn't feel good. Truth is we all need someone, anyone, from time to time. Sure, we need to be independent enough to handle ourselves, our own problems and what not but not all the time. You're not as alone as you choose to be.... People are here, willing to talk or whatever it is you need.

It's just, can you trust yourself to trust us? Don't get used to being alone because it's not a good place to be. It may be scary to trust people and you're sick of the betrayal. Thing is no one can make promises that things like that won't happen again. The cold fact is that this is part of life: we all have to deal with it. But it doesn't mean everyone's like that. So please don't think that nothing will change. 

It will if you let it, if you want it to. 

At the end, What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, no?