Shed your Self-definition.

Day 108.

"Only when we shed all Self-definition 

do we find who we really are."

I really need to learn how to embody that statement.

Narrowed down my options to 2 schools of the same course, but majoring in different things. Someone, anyone really, please be proud of me (cause I didn't think I could do it within 9 days). I would really appreciate someone telling me that I'm doing the right thing: putting aside the crazy emotions and focusing on the things I can change.

Still surprise myself sometimes by how I'm still affected by my results. Maybe not so much the results part, but rather the path I'm suppose to take from here. Yeah, I still cry sometimes these days, when it gets too overwhelming: when I come home from a whole day of school scouting and just crumble amongst the heaps of pamphlets and information I've barely began to process.

I expected this I suppose.... Then again, maybe I wasn't so sure it was going to be like this.

Just thankful for the support system I have right now. Family, teachers, friends, you all know who you are. Whether it's emotional support, course advice or even physically being here by me: just thank you all for that.

Daily reminder: STAY POSITIVE. DON'T GIVE UP. SMILE.

Major headache these nights coupled with the dreams and bad sleep, self doubt and so much uncertainty. But this is nothing compared to what other people out there might be going through..... I should count my blessings. I'm alive, healthy and so are my family and friends. I'm lucky. I am lucky.