A different Christmas.

Day 31.

25/12/13, 12.09 am.

Merry Christmas everyone.
So Christmas is here and it's officially a month since us. A little odd to remember Christmas this way, and yeah I miss you still. But it's Christmas nonetheless, so I hope you're having a great one there with your friends, sure seems like it.

Turns out I got your flight day wrong... hahha. Too out of your life to be updated I think. Now that's just too depressing to talk about so I'm not going to! How's the snow where you are? It's sure looks pretty from where I am. Wished it snowed here too. Snow somehow makes everything look more magical and the world like a better place (too much optimism/retard-ism in me I think)

Flying in less than 9 hours, but I'm done packing so it's all good.
Guess I won't be writing for a few days and that's kinda weird. So used to doing this almost every day it's a habit now.

Christmas with Jie and mum's side is a first this year. We've always had it with dad's side, but cause my aunt is no longer around, we no longer celebrate her birthday on the eve as we've always done all these years. It was her wish, to spend every birthday on the 24th of Dec with us, and we always did what she wanted. It's different this year now that she's gone. and I think it always will be in the years that come with us never going to have a chance to ever do it with her again.....
I still remember her though.
It's been 10 months, but I remember her like it was yesterday. That's the way things work I suppose. It's always hard to forget the people you love, maybe also because they aren't meant to be forgotten.

I wish I had you here to tell you her story.

They say as you grow older, the things you really want for Christmas can't be bought or sometimes, even given.
They are the things you know you can never get back again or never even get to have. Maybe that's growing up, the realization that you can't always get what you want, but even then it's going to be okay.
This is so true this year, with my aunt gone and now you too.