Anywhere but here.

Day 14.

Week 2. Where is all the time going?
All the times I've been asking myself: "why is time passing so slowly?" Suddenly that question doesn't seem valid anymore.

Day 2 of work.
Dawn's not with me cause she's in HK so I'm going to be all alone with the others for the next few days. It's coming along okay though, other than the physical tiredness and all the cuts and bruises I've been getting, its actually nice. It's interesting to learn new things. But more so because everyone there doesn't know me, and they don't know what I'm going through. 
It's a clean slate, I can pretend I'm happy and no one will ever know. It's a nice place with nice people, and better yet it's a place where I can escape to. Even with all the new blue blacks appearing, 8 hours of standing and quite a pathetic pay (I must admit) I'm honestly fine and quite relieved I have something to pass time with. Afterall, physical pain is always going to be better than emotional pain.

Mum and Dad are planning a trip too, and I really, REALLY appreciate that. Right now I would rather be anywhere but here. Take me to the North Pole for all I care, just not here. Just not in a place where I can only miss you more...

Everything in my mind today is coming in snippets.
Even my writing.... Sigh. I can't write or think properly tonight. One thing's for sure though, even if my mind is a blur, even after 2 weeks, I still remember that night clearly. Everything about it, everything you said.
How much it hurt then, how much it still hurts. All of it.