A Great Big World - Say something.
Falling in love with this song.
It's the song that's perfect for all the late nights I can't sleep, and they sound so DAMN GOOD. It's one of those rare times where Christina doesn't go all out on her vocals and it becomes a soft song that encompasses the deepest kind of hurt; losing someone you love. It's a really beautiful song.
Day 26. All so, so fast. It's been almost a month since you. It's getting... easier? Easier to bury the hurt and ache. It's getting Easier to pretend like I'm okay, and I cry less now. Yayyy for me right?? Went to get my hair done today, just to change my mood and well to feel nothing like myself. I suppose I feel lighter. Less saddening to look at definitely, so that's great isn't it~
Talking to you now, feels so...
I don't even know what's the right word for it. Sad? Weird? Odd? Hurt? I guess a little of everything. It's like, I don't know anymore, how to talk to you. Because I want to talk to you the way I did, just that's not how it is anymore. This hurt, this isn't because you don't want me anymore. This hurt is because even when we try to talk as friends, I feel like something's wrong, there isn't an ease at all for you. It's hard for you isn't it? It must be hard having to deal with me. The way we talk, it's like there's a space. A space so huge that all the nice formalities and the awkward happy tone only shows me how everything, EVERYTHING is different between us. It's a space that maybe, sadly, might always be there from now on.
You once said I'd never lose you, not even as a friend.
Truth is, the way we are both acting now, I maybe already did.
And while I don't blame anyone but myself because I caused my own misery by allowing myself to be so messed up, You are choosing to let it go. You are choosing to forget me the way, I should be too.
It's good though.
It's great knowing you're happy even without me.
That's the right way, that's the way it's suppose to be.
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