The Idea Of Self.

Day 15.

Getting the falling sick vibe... That's bad. Being sick when you're already messed up only makes things worst. Sighh. I just gotta keep on going.

Found an interesting read today. It hit pretty close to the heart of how I'm feeling right now, only one part really, kinda at least. The Illusion Of Self-Esteem:
http://thoughtcatalog.com/amy-miksch/2013/12/the-illusion-of-self-esteem/

Actually, the thing that I felt most about was:

" Unconditional self-acceptance means just what it says. No matter what, unconditionally, you accept yourself. You are a flawed, fallible human being, just like everyone else. You have strengths, you have weaknesses, you mess up, and you succeed. That doesn’t make you any better or any worse than everyone else. Write down five things you dislike about yourself, then five things you like. The former is far easier, isn’t it? The negative things are based on how you compare yourselves to others for the most part, aren’t they? Well stop it! We define ourselves, our “self” based on things that are constantly changing. I challenge you to practice being accepting of the person you are in this moment. Practice accepting the things you perceive to be negative about yourself along with the things you perceive to be positive. Quoting Shakespeare, “There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” You are enough, and if you start accepting yourself, I think you’ll be pleasantly surprised to find others will, too."

I am enough. 

More than anything else, I am me and I cant change that. Not for anything, not for anyone. Sometimes just being me may not be good enough to achieve certain things. Sometimes I'm not what other people expected. Sometimes I'm not what other people thought I was, or even what they want. But it's okay. 

I am Me.

Imperfect, Crazy, Emotional at times, Odd, Weird, Friendly, and whatever else there is. One day it's going to be okay again, and being me is all I have and all I can be right now.